Wow its been since August 17th I have wrote a blog. I wish I could say I have lost a great amount of weight but that hasn't happened. I wish I could say I have stuck with the eating healthy but I haven't. I wish I could say I have kept up with the fitness but I haven't. I haven't failed I have just struggled.
I came to the conclusion about a month and a half ago I have to love myself the way I am now to love myself 100lbs smaller. So that's where I am at now learning loving myself and taking care of Stacy. I have always put my self last especially in the last 5 years. I am there to help everyone and everything but wasn't helping the most important person. My spiritual life had taken the back seat too. So last month I decided to do something for myself weekly. I have had a massage, my hair done, a weekend away, and a day of just relaxing. I am no longer sporting the yoga pants, no make up, and ponytail look. ( there will be no pony tails in my future for sure as my hair is too short for it). Don't be alarmed my husband and kids are still getting plenty of mom attention. We had a fun evening at the park playing baseball. As a family with a preteen and 2 teens we don't always agree on stuff like this. Spiritually I am working on getting back to where I need to be. I am where God wants me to be church wise and that has been a struggle for a few years but I am back home.
In February I was browsing Facebook and came upon an event that was scheduled to happen in my community and there was an essay contest to win the Title of Henry County Sweetheart. It was the night before the deadline I was like I have nothing to lose and I wrote an essay. Not thinking much about it more the next week I got the call. I won!!!! I won a tool box of some neat things to help my weight loss journey. It was very overwhelming.
One thing I won was a membership to Anytime fitness and began to use it almost immediately. I still am working on the motivation part and getting in there but its coming. I am trying to become a regular in Zumba class which is a struggle. I am so glad it is getting warmer I love walking at the park and the trail. I checked out a new trail last night but I am iffy about it. I just need to get in a routine and it is tough.
I have come to realize I have an addiction to food and have no clue how to control my food intake. I have actually looked into over eater's anonymous. Wishing they had a support group local and they don't. But I do have their steps wrote down so I am beginning there. This is a real struggle and I know I am not the only one that deals with it. Actually I have kept it very secretive but I am putting it out there today.
I am doing this as a forever change not a quick fix. If it takes me two years than it will be two years but I will never see this weight again. It will be a complete lifestyle change. I need so much support to keep going. I have some amazing people in my life that have been that to me even when I fell off the wagon. I am forever thankful for that!!!
