Ramblings

Here I am another week and not much progress. I am trying so hard but have had so many setbacks. I have started working with a personal trainer and I am so happy with that choice. He keeps me accountable for my actions. And this journey is not just a physical one its also a mental one. I believe it is more mental than physical. I have always felt negative torwards myself for as long as I can remember and have had situations in my life that have profoundly effected me mentally. I am working on both now. Food has always been my go to comforter. I am working on a routine for myself to help in this area! As this week has went I let my routine go. The gym was no longer a priority as well as a few other key points of my routine. So am I really working on myself? Yes but I have so much more to work on.
This morning I woke up with the determination to get back in the gym. So I do I was off to the gym at 7:30am as Shane took the kids to school. I did my workout that was in my training folder. I finished and it was around 8:20am and I felt like I could do more. So I went to the park and walked a mile. I went home went through my routine. Like any other day or my goal day. I asked Shane to take me to work this morning. As I was about to turn in and received a phone call that rocked my world. Now I am an hour from home sitting in a waiting room. So this wasn't really a normal day. And I am unsure of the near future. But I do know that when I walk back in the door whenever that will be tonight. The morning routine will effect my evening. I have my workout in and other things taken care of. And I can lay down in bed knowing I put my health at the near top of my priority list. I may take five years to reach my goal but I get there. (According to my trainer it will be much sooner than five years). I can and will do this!!! Sorry if this is all over the place!!

Getting back up!!!

Wow its been since August 17th I have wrote a blog. I wish I could say I have lost a great amount of weight but that hasn't happened. I wish I could say I have stuck with the eating healthy but I haven't. I wish I could say I have kept up with the fitness but I haven't.  I haven't failed I have just struggled.
I came to the conclusion about a month and a half ago I have to love myself the way I am now to love myself 100lbs smaller. So that's where I am at now learning  loving myself and taking care of Stacy. I have always put my self last especially in the last 5 years. I am there to help everyone and everything but wasn't helping the most important person. My spiritual life had taken the back seat too. So last month I decided to do something for myself weekly. I have had a massage, my hair done, a weekend away, and a day of just relaxing. I am no longer sporting the yoga pants, no make up, and ponytail look. ( there will be no pony tails in my future for sure as my hair is too short for it). Don't be alarmed my husband and kids are still getting plenty of mom attention. We had a fun evening at the park playing baseball. As a family with a preteen and 2 teens we don't always agree on stuff like this. Spiritually I am working on getting back to where I need to be. I am where God wants me to be church wise and that has been a struggle for a few years but I am back home.
In February I was browsing Facebook and came upon an event that was scheduled to happen in my community and there was an essay contest to win the Title of Henry County Sweetheart. It was the night before the deadline I was like I have nothing to lose and I wrote an essay. Not thinking much about it more the next week I got the call. I won!!!! I won a tool box of some neat things to help my weight loss journey. It was very overwhelming.
One thing I won was a membership to Anytime fitness and began to use it almost immediately. I still am working on the motivation part and getting in there but its coming. I am trying to become a regular in Zumba class which is a struggle. I am so glad it is getting warmer I love walking at the park and the trail. I checked out a new trail last night but I am iffy about it. I just need to get in a routine and it is tough.
I have come to realize I have an addiction to food and have no clue how to control my food intake. I have actually looked into over eater's anonymous. Wishing they had a support group local and they don't. But I do have their steps wrote down so I am beginning there. This is a real struggle and I know I am not the only one that deals with it.  Actually I have kept it very secretive but I am putting it out there today.
I am doing this as a forever change not a quick fix. If it takes me two years than it will be two years but I will never see this weight again. It will be a complete lifestyle change. I need so much support to keep going. I have some amazing people in my life that have been that to me even when I fell off the wagon. I am forever thankful for that!!!

Dreaded post

This is a post I have dreaded to write! This week has been the worst yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel horrible, my eating has been horrible, my water intake has been horrible and my exercise has been horrible. Its been a tough week and I feel so bad about it. But tomorrow is a new day and a new week and I will do better!!!!

New Adventures!

Where to begin on this week!!!!Monday morning bright and early I started cleaning the gym I am doing bootcamp at. I spent the majority of my morning before work doing that and let me tell you that is a huge workout!!! Tuesday morning I walked with my good friend Claudia around the park and then began bootcamp that evening! I weighed in and had lost more weight!!! I was excited about being able to mark that weight off the list!!! Eating and getting my water in this week has been so much easier than last week!!! I am getting into a routine on my exercise. Except Monday gotta figure that day out. But I will get it figured out!!! So my schedule is Monday: clean gym Tuesday: Walk in the morning and bootcamp in the evening. Wednesday: clean gym Thursday: Walk in the morning, bootcamp and clean gym after that. Friday: Walk in the morning. So I need to work on a couple of days. But I have faith I will figure it all out.
I have dabbled with the bootcamp idea for awhile and I told Stuart that I would start when school started. I signed up on the first day of school!! I am so glad I took the plunge!!! I have been in two classes and man is it hard work but I will get it and it will soon pay off. I love the encouragement of the girls in the class as well!!!
Last Sunday while visiting a church in town a sweet lady stood and was talking about a Temple Challenge that she was starting at the church. And I was thinking wow what a good idea. My husband signed me up so I will be doing that on Monday evenings!!!
Grocery shopping!!! I really watched everything that went into my cart this week while shopping. I made sure to read most of the nutrition labels. I made sure to throw a lot of fresh fruits and veggies in my cart!!! Grocery shopping took a while longer but that is ok with me for sure!!!! I feel so much better now that I eat healthy and I am trying new things as well!!!
I am so excited about my walk today. I love being out in nature and enjoying it. Today Shane and I were going to walk at first we were just going to walk around Baker Park and Shane said lets walk all around Memorial Park at first I was ok with that and then we were getting ready to pull in and I was like hey lets walk the Wilbur Wright Trail. I am soo glad we did what a great trail that is and it is beautiful!!!! I would recommend it to anyone.
Around here the Mooreland Fair is a big thing and tonight we went out there. I have always gotten a elephant ear since I can remember. I did so tonight and enjoyed my little splurge!!! I will be back to working out tomorrow.
Last but not least I signed up for a 5K that I will walk!!!! I am so excited to do it and need as much encouragement I can get. I would love to have people walk with me that day!!! August 30th is that day!!!
I just want to thank everyone that is encouraging through this journey. I am so thankful for all that have supported me!!! I am also thankful for the people that have came up to me and said I see a difference and you are looking good!!! It really helps me stay on track!!!!

Walking, Walking, and more walking!!!

Today I met with my friend Claudia to walk around that park. It is a mile around our park which is awesome!!!! Looking back to when I really started this journey almost 4 weeks ago I could barely get in a half mile before my legs, lungs, and back were screaming at me in pain....... Today it was like a light bulb went off or I was paying attention to my body but I made it around one time and I was like I feel good lets go for another. I walked two miles today and that is a huge accomplishment for this girl!!!! I am going to push myself to walk as much as possible. One of my goals is to walk a 5K!!!! Hopefully I will accomplish that goal before winter!!

Another Week in the Books!

I really thought this past week would be better............. Boy was I wrong.................. I had struggles upon struggles........ I had been drinking 80 ounces of water daily before this week. Yep that has been a huge struggle this week. Everything has been a struggle from making sure I get my exercise to eating right. Tuesday and Wednesday I had some dental work done. I went in for a routine cleaning and come to find out I had to have all of my previous fillings redone. I have a small mouth (I know right you think I am lying). So any work in my mouth is horrible........ Tuesday and Wednesday I didn't get any work out in and food was the farthest from my thoughts. Thursday was the first day of school and Shane and I were able to walk after we took the kids to school and that evening I signed up for a women's only boot camp which I start on Tuesday (pray for me)!!! I also weighed and lost another 4 pounds!!!! Down 11 pounds now!!!Friday we were able to walk twice!!!!! I love it!!! Saturday was a busy, busy did I say busy day!!!! I started my day off with my walk then went straight to help my OF Tommie at Miracle League working the concession stand... Do you know how hard it was to work in there?!? Then I WALKED from there to meet Shane at a block party. I would have never walked there before but I didn't think twice. Then to end the day we went to a family reunion and I didn't eat a thing!!!! Life is changing once again this coming week but I will embrace it!!!!
This week I am making small goals for myself!!!!
I will drink my water all of it daily!
I will log everything I eat and my exercise!
I will eat a snack or meal every 2-3 hours!
Ok last but not least this week I let Shane take pictures of me and post them on facebook!

Vacation week!

Oh my goodness I am so glad to be able to have a week to relax but when I am not in my routine how things can go crazy. We went to Pokagon State Park and camped with my parents! We always have sweets on camping trips to snack on as well as different things to snack on. This is where things get tough for me!!!! I am a grazer and snacker. So Monday was a travelling day and a get organized at the campsite. Monday was a great day for me. Tuesday was a good day as well. Wednesday we went to Shipshewania and an Amish Restaurant and yep I was done for the day but it was good!!! Thursday was another not so good food day. Friday was a good food day as well!!! I was able to get some physical activity in each day this week. I pushed myself to walk trails around the park and they were tough. I feel good the strength I gained this week. I posted this earlier about my hike!!! Today as I was hiking we came to a hill that looked like a mountain from where I was standing at the bottom about to climb it. I thought I there was no way I was going to make it. But I struggled and pushed myself to get up it. And then after I was at the top I realized it really wasn't that hard after all. So much in our lives is like that and we are really a lot stronger than we think! I am pretty sure I can relate this to my Journey I have began!!!! This coming week I will be returning to work and the kids will be returning to school! My goal for the week is 80 ounces of water each day. Get back on a routine! Physical activity every day!!!!!!!!!!