Here I am another week and not much progress. I am trying so hard but have had so many setbacks. I have started working with a personal trainer and I am so happy with that choice. He keeps me accountable for my actions. And this journey is not just a physical one its also a mental one. I believe it is more mental than physical. I have always felt negative torwards myself for as long as I can remember and have had situations in my life that have profoundly effected me mentally. I am working on both now. Food has always been my go to comforter. I am working on a routine for myself to help in this area! As this week has went I let my routine go. The gym was no longer a priority as well as a few other key points of my routine. So am I really working on myself? Yes but I have so much more to work on.
This morning I woke up with the determination to get back in the gym. So I do I was off to the gym at 7:30am as Shane took the kids to school. I did my workout that was in my training folder. I finished and it was around 8:20am and I felt like I could do more. So I went to the park and walked a mile. I went home went through my routine. Like any other day or my goal day. I asked Shane to take me to work this morning. As I was about to turn in and received a phone call that rocked my world. Now I am an hour from home sitting in a waiting room. So this wasn't really a normal day. And I am unsure of the near future. But I do know that when I walk back in the door whenever that will be tonight. The morning routine will effect my evening. I have my workout in and other things taken care of. And I can lay down in bed knowing I put my health at the near top of my priority list. I may take five years to reach my goal but I get there. (According to my trainer it will be much sooner than five years). I can and will do this!!! Sorry if this is all over the place!!
